Thursday, February 23, 2012

NaBloPoMo #23 ~ Big Then, Small Now

NaBloPoMo February 2012
Today's prompt:  Talk about a problem that seemed
big at the time, but now that it has resolved
seems much smaller.

So, Ubergeek and I have been trying to come up with something for this prompt for a while. 

We've tossed around several ideas, from Bean's cleft lip (never really a 'big' deal for us, honestly) to a misunderstanding with my daddy on a family vacation that made the whole week uncomfortable for everyone (we had some harsh words, I apologized, but he didn't remember me apologizing because of his brain cancer) to the whole D thing (still a big thing that we try to keep as small as possible).

Nothing seems to fit the 'big then, small now' scenario in my mind.  

I keep going back to his first suggestion...miscarriages.  
Two, to be exact.  Both before Bean was conceived. 
They were both early on (about 7-8 weeks and 4-5 weeks).  
They were both different (no heartbeat/DNC, fertilized egg didn't implant/'late period' after a positive pregnancy test).  
But they both shattered our world.  
They both made me question whether I'd ever be able to have children.  
They both made us think long and hard about trying for a second child.

Time has healed a lot of the hurt.  
Time has lessened the pain of loosing those babies.  
Time has decreased the times I think about them.  
Time has made something devastatingly huge into something small enough to be tucked away in a part of my heart that I keep hidden and protected.


  1. What a good prompt. A prompt that can help us realize that things get better...that they're not always as life shattering as they may seem at the time...though miscarriages might always be a sting that burns...I'm sure you're not alone with that one...I've had three, too...fortunately we have the boosts in life, too...

  2. Hugs Denise... the last line of you post made me tear up. I'm sorry that you had to go through that.

  3. I agree with Amy (not myself . . . well, I DO agree with myself most of the time) that this is a really good prompt. Thank you for your honesty and transparency in memories so difficult to describe. We are more alike than we knew; as I have had 2 miscarriages at similar stages and similar 'results'. Hugs from your Iowa girlie.


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