My time in Georgia with my family was amazing.
It was a much needed reprieve from the day in, day out that was running me into the ground.
I felt like I was missing part of me as I drove the the airport, went through security (who knew it was that easy and fast when you don't have a stroller and diaper bag and D-supplies!), and got settled into my seat. It was the first time in seven years and at least that many trips that I had been without kids on a plane....it was weird, in the best sort of way!
My mother and her house provided what I needed. I went to bed when I wanted, got up when I wanted (and when I woke up in the middle of the night I didn't have to get up to check a BG or a sleep shouter (Bug doesn't talk in her sleep, she shouts!)...only to pee if I needed to or I could just roll over!), and although there were some schedules to be kept, there wasn't ever a rush to do anything. I ate without interruption...way too quickly because of it, so I need to work on that! I got ready without interruption....and was able to take my time, which was nice! I read a book, like a whole book, between the long flights and a quiet afternoon with no other plans. (How to Bake a Perfect Life by Barbara O'Neal ~ fun read; great story; so need to try to bake bread from scratch!! no, I wasn't asked to say anything about it)
To be totally disconnected from what I have to do on a daily basis was a breath of fresh air. When I would call and talk to Ubergeek and the girls, I was never given any BG numbers (with one exception when Bean told me about a 57 earlier that day and Ubergeek yelled from across the room that she wasn't supposed tell me that!) or asked about carb counts. He wanted me to not have to even think about D stuff....yeah, he's awesome like that! And not just the disconnect from the D stuff, just disconnecting from all the mommy stuff was relaxing in a way that I don't honestly know how to put into words.
I've been home for three days and I am back in the groove of that day in, day out again. It was quite the shock to my system, honestly, to jump back into things. Thankfully Ubergeek had taken more days off than I was away so he's been around to help. It's amazing to me that whenever we are both home the girls still need me to do everything...even when Ubergeek is the most obvious choice! They have learned in the last few days that Daddy can do things when Mommy is home just like he did when she was gone! Good lesson!!
I'm hoping to be able to fit in more get aways...not necessarily ones that require a plane ride since that can get really spendy really quickly! But at least ones where I can disconnect from things that drain the life out of me and reconnect with things that fill me up. I don't think it would be a hard sell for the girls...from the little bits and pieces I've heard, they had a great time while I was gone! (Yes, I have asked Ubergeek to do a guest post about his experience!)
Yes, all the mommy stuff was here waiting for me when I got back.
Yes, all the D stuff hasn't gone anywhere.
No, I'm not all 'zen' about it now that I'm back because I was gone for six days! And honestly, I didn't expect that I would be!
BUT, just being away from it for a time was much needed and much appreciated and that's enough.