Smiling for the camera, waiting for the bus to pull out.
And so the week has begun! Yesterday was 'drop off day' for Diabetes Camp for Bean. (Yes, I did ask the nursing staff when they would be handing out the Valium for the parents!!)
Bean did very well during the 2.5 hour check in process. There was a lot of waiting involved which gave her time to eat her lunch and run around with a new friend who's brother was going to camp. We were able to chat with several parents...nice to be in a room full of same knowing that you could just talk about D without all the extra explaining that makes me feel like I'm a rambling idiot! We even saw one of Bean's preschool teachers, who's daughter was headed to camp for the third or fourth year. And we were able to 'scope out' the other campers and felt really good about not seeing any potential issues brewing. (With one exception of a rambunctious little guy who was playing tag in the parking lot and ending up with a bloody nose and road rash on his face before the bus even arrived!!)
Bean was sporting her awesome tummietote and headband from Tallygear and I lost count of the compliments she got and the questions I got about where they came from! (Yes, I emailed Donna to get business cards to hand out at pick up on Friday!) We also got countless hugs from Bean...she was super excited but I could also tell the nervousness was growing!
She woke up with a lovely 57...excited much? new pod working a bit too well? You know I loved writing that number on the log!!! ;) But she was at 186 for lunch...much better place to be when getting on a bus for a 2 hour ride!
She was on the verge of tears with our last hug and my little prayer and pep talk (so was I!) but we held it together and she put on a brave face. She was all smiles as she waved and blew kisses and gave us thumbs up while waiting for the bus to pull out.
The afternoon was interesting....Bug was hanging out with Grandma and Grandpa to make the drop off process a bit easier, so Ubergeek and I headed to a late lunch. He was not quite as clam as I was but finally let some of the stress go and was able to enjoy lunch.
We picked up Bug and headed home. She knows Bean is 'at camp' and has already asked this morning when we are going to pick up Bean....I think it will be a long week for her, too!
After Bug was in bed, Ubergeek asked me for the millionth time "what do you think she's doing right now?"
We speculated for a bit and then he said "we have troops in Iraq that can webcam why the hell can't I webcam with my daughter who is only 2 hours away?!?!?" To which I laughed and said I am totally blogging that tomorrow!!
It's totally frustrating to not be able to talk to her, to know what's on her schedule, to not know how her BGs are doing. Yes, I know there's a large trained staff and that theoretically everything will be fine. But they don't do the job of her pancreas 24/7! Oh, and they only do a 'midnight' check and then a breakfast check. Seriously?!?! What about all those hours in between?!?!? That's where those guardian angels will have to be working overtime this week!!
I was awake a lot last night. Between my body being programmed to wake up for BG checks and Bug having a cold and me having a cold, there wasn't a lot of consistent Z's going on.
I felt like I was missing a part of me when I was going up to bed and wasn't carrying Bean's PDM kit.
It felt totally wrong to not be doing a BG check when I went in to settle Bug after she was coughing.
It felt really weird to not hear that familiar 'beep.....beep, beep' at breakfast this morning.
I find myself praying a lot...a lot! I have a totally new understanding of the verse about praying without ceasing. Anytime I think of Bean I whisper a prayer about keeping her safe and helping her be confident and giving her peace and helping her enjoy every moment and helping us get through this week!
And it hasn't even been 24 hours yet!!